I’ve been through a lot of changes since I last updated this blog regularly. I’ve wanted to restart this and to be consistent because I think that’s what you and this project deserves but I’ve also struggled with where to start. So I think I’ll start with where I am and have been most recently. It’s fitting to me that my first post this year be about the loss of my fellow artist and online friend Ennis Newman perhaps better known as Avenging Wind/Fathom 9.
It’s hard to piece together what’s happened when you’re only friends with someone online and can’t contact them directly. From what I know he died pretty suddenly. That cold, wintery night I walked around New York City, aggressive, confused, hurting. I attempted to process shame someone so young and talented should be taken away so abruptly and get through it sooner rather than later. That wasn’t meant to be the case for and just a few weeks later I would suffer another loss.
What sits on my chest with the weight of a brick is the fact that I was just about to contact him just to say hey, are you ok? His energy seemed different in his Facebook posts shortly before his passing and I wanted to connect with him. We had the same kind of restless heart, never creating enough. Just a kind of angst ridden, on fire artist. I understood that. I thought the feeling was nothing and maybe I should wait for one more post to give me that feeling before messaging him but I never got that chance. It’s a mistake I never want to repeat again and one I never wish for you either.
Here’s the post I wrote on So Fresh And So Green’s Facebook Page shortly after I found out brother Avenging Wind died:
I am deeply saddened by the news of the loss of brother Avenging Wind 2754 / Fathom 9 (Brotherhood of Doom). He was truly an artist and only wanted for his art to be heard. I reviewed his work a few years ago on a sucka ass blog that took it down because they didn’t want to credit me for the post. It’s a shame when an artist’s work is treated so callously. Anyway, fortunately we were able to discuss the review in depth at the time and he was so pleased that I understood it– but not more pleased than me. I feel so fortunate to have connected with him in his short time here and I’m happy I saved some earlier draft of this post so it can see the light of day again.
I’m at a loss right now. I just wanted to share this. Take a listen. You didn’t have to know of him before to enjoy this.
*FreEP: Fathom 9- Soul-Heart Sessions: Winter Leaves*
This isn’t actually a FreEP, or a mixtape exactly, it’s a FreeMix you can download courtesy of producer and Memphis, TN native Fathom 9. The title “Soul-Heart Sessions: Winter Leaves” is a bit deceiving. Rather than this mix being like an interpretation of Winter as a season, it is an interpretation of a season of the soul and heart.
Spanning R&B, Jazz, Hip Hop and Soul “Soul-Heart Sessions: Winter Leaves” speaks of the possibilities of new love, perhaps a hope for a season of Spring for the soul as well as of revisiting the wintery coldness of heartache.
Standouts for me include: The nice reworking of D’Angelo’s ‘Me And Those Dreamin’ Eyes Of Mine’ on ‘D’Angelo Stringfello (Whoa Whoa Whoa, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah)’, ‘Falling In Love’ with it’s lovely strings, ‘Skipping through Leaves’ with it’s hard hitting jazziness and the poignant, clever reworking of Billie Holiday’s ‘I’m a Fool to Want You’ on ‘Foolish Child’.
I’d like to thank Casual James for giving me someone to talk to about the odd situation of losing an online friend. And Carminelitta from helping make this unthinkable event more real for me. Read her goodbye post to him Tribute: Avenging Wind.